What is “KILIG” Feeling?

Welcome to my own little world. I am sure my life is unique but definitely we still share some things in common. In the morning, I am usually busy in the kitchen cooking and making breakfast for the family. Next getting my son ready for school or bible class, dropping him off to school, running errands (usually grocery), cleaning up the house (I won’t go into details. I tend to be a neat freak!),  taking care of my toddler, picking up my son from school, cooking dinner, giving the kids a bath, and putting them to bed. When they are fast asleep (one of my favorite times)  I enjoy watching recorded TV shows with my hubby while having a beer or two. Oh I forgot, somewhere in there, I try to work on my blog too. Basically this is the routine everyday. Why and I mentioning these? Because in the midst of my routine, today, something special happened to me… There was a break and it inspired me to write.

I felt something we call “kilig” in the Philippines. I am not sure what is the exact word for it  in English, so I quickly looked up for a description from urbandictionary.com.

KILIG
Noun “It is the sudden feeling of an inexplicable joy one gets when something romantic or idealistic occurs.
When kilig, one may experience the following:
*butterflies in one’s stomach
*heart melting
*shivers down one’s spine
*irrepressible noises from one’s mouth
*uncontrollable smiling
*an inner conflict between hope of something wished for and realityKilig may also be defined as that mountain top, floating, on cloud nine, invincible, i-could-keep-smiling, heart aching goodness and feeling which overpowers the mind’s ability to think straight, act straight, breathe properly and articulate thoughts into a single comprehensible sentence”.

For me, kilig is one of the most beautiful human experiences. I am certain, sometime in your life you have felt this with someone. It reminded me of my younger days, of those love and inspiration, love letters, phone calls, surprise visits, when the heart would beat so fast to the point that you could hear it.I recall having felt this so many times with my first relationship, with a very special friendship, unspoken feelings, mutual understandings, and definitely towards the man I married. Yes that is “kilig”!  This morning, I received a message from my sister. She said she has a Christmas present for me! I saw my phone and there was a special video message from my long time crush! He is one of the most sought eligible bachelor in the movie industry in Manila (special mention to Piolo Jose Pascual). He made me smile and brought back those nice feelings. Special thanks to my sister for knowing how to “tickle” me. This is one unique early Christmas gift. Thanks to Instagram, now you can follow celebrities. It makes you feel close to them when you see their personal photos and messages. It makes you feel like you can truly reach for the stars. You are lucky when they get to reply to your comment. I guess the social media is really a powerful tool connecting people in some level.

Now I am back to my reality. As I write this article, my children won’t stop calling me to play with them. Ciao!  Until next time!

Appreciate little things in life. Be young at heart!

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Maybe There Is Really A “Meant To Be?”

Being in a relationship is not just about feelings. That’s what I have learned from  books.  Emotions keep changing in life. I believe that in order for a relationship to last, there should be love and commitment. I have been married to my husband for seven years now, going to eight. And I always pray to God to take care of our relationship. It is a life long commitment and we intend to stay together for the rest of our lives. We all know that there can be trials along the way, and journeys are not perfect.  When we got married I received a simple frame with a prayer on it. I put it up in our living room beside our wedding photo. It says “Lord help us to remember when we first met and the strong love that grew between us… Dear Lord we put our marriage into your hands. Amen. ” So I try to remember how it all began and I can’t help but say “maybe there is really such a thing as meant to be?” My  husband and I knew each other all our lives. We were neighbors in our hometown. He lived just a few blocks from our home. We went to the same school in elementary. We were classmates from fourth to sixth grade. Both our families served in the same church. He was an altar boy and I was a member in one organization. We were friends, young people hanging out in church. High school came and he moved to all boys school. I moved to all girls’. We still saw each other in church. Young love, he started to send me love letters and sent me signals that he liked me. I had a crush on him too but nothing serious. When we were in high school, he told me he loved me and I did not really believe him. He became cold and aloof. The love letters stopped and the affection as well. College came and we both went to different Universities. Sometimes we would still see each other in church. He studied Physical Therapy and I went with Psychology. I ended up getting my Master’s degree too.  We both got into relationships. He met a girl and would sometimes bring her to church. I believed we were also introduced to each other. He moved to another country. We sometimes saw each other online and would sometimes chat. Likewise, I had my first boyfriend. We had our own lives. In 2006, our paths just crossed again.  We were both single and things just happened. It’s like everything fell into place. The Universe conspired to help us find each other again!  We fell in love and the next year tied the knot! This was quite an adventure (to be written next time). It was not all bed of roses. There were great challenges too especially with the distance between us. When our paths crossed, we were living in our own perfect worlds. Then I had to make the hardest decision of my life, leaving family, friends and my blooming career. In the end, love conquered all…   Now we are together with our two beautiful children. As long as there is faith in each other, commitment to take care of the marriage and choose to save it on top everything or anyone, I am sure, we will make it another day, another year, and hopefully as long as we live!

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My First Blog

I have always wanted to write, but could not find the time. I do not have a formal training in writing. I am not sure if I can blog. However, deep within, I have always felt the need to express myself in writing. Like music, it gives that satisfaction. I do not know if writing is one of my passions in life. So I have to find out. Since I was in high school, I have been fond of keeping a little diary or journal. Writing  is a part of me. It has helped me survive and appreciate my life. I believe writing will help with  self expression, introspection, and soul searching.

I am always busy with everyday routine. I have been a stay at home mom since November 2010. I have focused myself on my children, the home, the family. I am actually writing now while my little one is taking a nap!  I used to have a career,  but after having children, I chose a different path. I say that from my personal experience, being a full time mother is more rewarding and challenging in different ways. I am not saying this is true for others.  We are all different. And I am speaking for myself. With all the changes, in the midst of  the daily routine, sometimes I get the feeling that I have lost something. I am not regretting any of my choice and it is nobody’s fault. I just  believe that there comes a point when you start to search for your passion. Right now I am reading a book entitled “I am that girl” by Alexis Jones. It says that “Clues to your passion are always around you….You’ll only find your passion if you search and fight to discover it.”

I hope this blogging will help me find my passion and realize something beautiful. I hope I can also inspire other people and learn from them as well. We are all here for a purpose, definitely we can learn from each others’ experiences.