HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

I just want to say Happy Holidays to all of you!

May you enjoy Christmas time (alone or with family/friends).

May this coming New Year bring us good health, peace, hope,  love, and wisdom!!!

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Dreaming of Boracay

You caught my eye

You were rows behind

It was a short flight to Boracay

I was there to unwind.

We were in the same boat

Stayed in the same island

Beautiful memories afloat

The feel of the warm sand

Parallel journeys

Intertwined fate

Wonders and mysteries

Treasured memories

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“In Like or In Love?” (very short love story)

She came back from a vacation abroad. She heard that there was a new guy at work, and they said that he was a heartthrob. She did not really care.

The next day, she was called for a meeting. She sat across the new guy. In her mind she thought, ” Fine. He is cute.” The meeting was adjourned. The new guy approached her. He introduced himself. She thought it was nice of him to do that. They talked for a while, and they hit it off.

Almost everyday, he would visit her in her cubicle at work. He would share pastries or coffee or just engage in small talks during breaks. Months and years passed by. Their friendship remained. Unconsciously, she liked him. She would deny it but eventually she was having feelings. She thought, maybe she was just fond of his ways. Moreover, there was no way of liking him because he had a girl friend. He talked about her.  She thought, “maybe he looks at me like a sister”, but honestly she thought there were mixed signals.  He would talk to her about his girl friend, call her up whenever they were having problems. He would seek for advice.  He would share his secrets (both nice and bad) to her. They were good friends.

One day, after work, as she was heading towards her car, she heard a voice behind her. It was the girl friend. It was the second time she met her. The first time was when the guy introduced them during an office event. The girl looked so worried, mad, confused, jealous. She just let her feelings out.The guy found them talking. He was embarrassed that his girlfriend had to confront her. He assured her nothing was going on between them.

After that incident, little by little the guy kept his distance. He no longer dropped by her cubicle or share coffee/pastries or engage in small talks. One day, he just informed her that they were getting married. She was shocked, but she was expecting it. Did it hurt? Maybe a little. Her heart was broken. She moved on…  After her long term relationship, she still prayed harder to find her soul mate, that man who is meant for her.

After a few months, she reconnected with a friend. And he found her! Everything fell into place. It was magical.  She got married the following year. At present, they are happily married for 10 years, with three kids. Sometimes, she would still remember that new guy from work. It makes her smile, and she still ask herself if somewhere along the way, did he have feelings for her too? Was she in like or in love with him? It was in the past. It will always be a special memory.

The Cycle of Life

On Life

Today is a very special day for our family. My sister is giving birth to a beautiful princess. In fact, she is still in the hospital. It’s been hours, and she is still in labor. How I wish I can just teleport, fly across the Pacific Ocean, and witness the joy when the baby finally comes out. I am so thrilled for them. I am sure every member of the family is excited to meet and greet the new addition to the family. It is amazing how we share the same fate. Both of us started with the labor signs/pains on the 17th, admitted to the hospital on the 18th. We were both in labor the whole day and night. The babies would not come out still. All the epidural, the pain, so unbearable! In the end, we both needed to have c-sections. Both babies born on the 19th! (But mine of course happened 6 years ago)

This is it! After two miscarriages, after all the mourning and the pain, finally,  their bundle of joy will be in their arms soon. I know that it will change them. It will change their lives forever. Just like how having kids has changed mine. My children have given more meaning to my existence, more meaning to my life. Now, I have a purpose and a reason to live.

On Death

When I was younger, I did not give much thought about death. I finished college, had my Master’s degree, found a fulfilling career. I got promoted, had my own office and I loved my job. Moreover, I was able to travel to different places, my favorite was the Europe trip with my parents. Visited the United States too and went to different vacation spots in the Philippines. I remembered me saying to myself, “I have been blessed. I can die now.” But it all changed when I married and started my own family. Now, I am terrified when I think about death! (My death or losing a loved one)

My 6 year old has been asking questions about death: when, why people die, where people go when they die, what happens to the body, etc. I try to give him a simple explanation since the questions are NEVER ending. As a Catholic, I know we all go to heaven (this is what I tell my son). At the back of my head, I am also thinking of other explanations as to what happens when someone dies. Maybe we are like the energy transferred to one form into another. Or maybe, when we die that is the end of it. Nothing else. Blank. Black. No more.

I always ask God to grant us (me and my  husband) a long life, at least until we are both 90 years of age. I want to see my children grow, finish school, get a job that they love, find the love of their lives, have their own family.  Surely, I would love to play with my grandchildren!

So holding on to dear life! Appreciate every waking moment.

It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

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Christmas time is in the air again! You will definitely know it because of these: busy stores, people shopping for gifts (I do mine online. It is hard with the kids!), Christmas trees, colorful ornaments, holiday decor, mistletoe, Christmas wreaths, socks for the tree, peppermint, hot cocoa, elves and nutcracker soldiers (my favorites),  sweaters, jingle bells, and jolly Christmas songs. It is all wonderful! This is one of the children’s favorite holidays because Santa is going to give them presents. We savor the magic and spirit of Christmas.

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This year is better for me. I am happier. I was struggling (emotionally) with something through the years. Now I am free, the more that I aim to give my children the holidays and traditions they will never forget. I am more focused. I desire to build happy childhood memories for them. I want them to have a better life. My childhood was not perfect. My memories of Christmas is just fine. We had a unique family set up and it made a lot of things complicated. Maybe I will share this to you one of these days. I am just saying that we all have our journeys, our struggles in the past. Now, we have the chance to focus on the present. We make the best out of NOW with eyes hopeful for the future. Especially this time of love and sharing, we try to remember all the good things in life.

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It is one tradition that my husband and I made. This is our second year. We buy fresh pine tree the week after Thanksgiving. We enjoy its presence and its smell in the house. With our kids, we decorate it. We want to keep it simple and fun. We found some chocolate balls they sell in COSTCO now. These are colorful and very pretty. I hang it on the tree but our toddler kept on eating them, and she won’t stop. She started crying when we won’t give her some more! She wanted to get them all. In the end, we had to take all the Christmas balls down from the tree (edible and glass). We will have to skip it for this year. We have three more weeks left before Christmas! Enjoy with your loved ones!

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A Mother’s Heart

Way to Happiness

The following are collection of phrases I read somewhere. I usually just put together all these lessons in my head, and try to remember them by heart. Sharing to you some of my favorite credos:

Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a dream. Today is a gift. So live TODAY, be present.

I love this phrase because it guides me when my mind starts to wander off.

It is very nice to reminisce and appreciate your journey by looking back. I often recall some memories in the past from my childhood, teen years, when I started working, the family where I grew up as well as the dearest friends along the way. I can say life was  simpler then. Some make me smile, some make me cry. Definitely, looking back makes me understand more my present life.  On the other hand, there are times when I keep wondering what my life could have been if I chose a different path. Then I am left with questions, lots of questions of what could have been.  Then I go back to my credo. The past is history. I can never go back or change it. It is useless to over think and waste my time and energy  about things I can not change.

Every circumstance in our lives (both good and bad) are necessary for us to be where we are right now. There is a reason for every event, every encounter with people who walk on our path. 

People come and go in our journey, and some linger for a while. There is still a reason behind. As of now, we do not know why. Only God knows why (by the way, I love this song by Kid Rock. I remember my brother and his friends)! So just welcome the people in your life right now. These are people we love and cherish, and some we might dislike or hate.

It is good to have dreams and hopes. They keep us going. They inspire and motivate us. It surely helps us to have a happier life. And as we have an eye for the future, we should bear more importance on TODAY. If we keep looking back or forward, we might miss out the feeling and the beauty of today. Try to recognize and appreciate the people and things we have right now. We are blessed in so many ways. I believe that if we cultivate in ourselves this way of thinking, we can be happier and satisfied.

Bloom where God planted you. You are special. You are blessed. Refrain from comparing yourself with others. You will either find yourself  superior or inferior. You are special. You are blessed.

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Have a beautiful day!