Random thoughts when I was walking on my treadmill.
Some people bring out the BEST in you.
Some people bring out the BEAST in you.
Best versus Beast
Do you know what I mean?
When I look back and think that for a very long time I suffered
Either caused by my own mind or by a culprit or a true source
I never understood why I had to be in that situation
As a Christian, I just viewed it as my cross
That everything has a reason
That darkness too shall pass
It tested me to the limits and I am not sure if it already broke me
The negative emotions made me sin in my mind, heart, words, and soul
Then I felt like a very sinful being feeling frustrated, hatred, anger,
I grew to dislike myself and I have never been so bad in my life
All those times, I felt not close to God
Everyday I can’t help but notice darkness and ugliness
I fought it because there was still beauty and graces around
I felt so trapped in a murky muddy place
But it does not matter now for You have liberated me
They say everything happens for a reason
And it will eventually make you a stronger and better person
I still have to figure that out
All I know is I have become more appreciative of my everyday
Each day I rejoice and I see beauty
And I savor a peaceful mind, a peaceful heart, and peaceful life.