She has changed. More gentle with words, more sensitive to people’s feelings, and considerate. Far from what I have come to know in the past. I see the efforts of being nice and civil. I feel the openness for a better relationship. And I know that she deserves the same thing. Everyday I strive to overcome certain unpleasant mental state such as annoyance or irritability that I have experienced for so many years that eventually evolved to be a natural reaction in her presence. There is a conscious effort each day to be good…
I have not seen the mother-in-law for more than a year. And we have not been “speaking” to each other. And now, in less than an hour, she will be here staying with us at home for 9 weeks. Nerve racking!
May God’s hands be at work.
Yesterday my kids were watching Turtle Tale Movie. And I found some lines so beautiful, and they struck me. This was a scene where the newly hatched turtle was having difficulty going up from the hole to the shore. The grandpa turtle gave him a nudge. The conversation goes:
Sammy: “The first steps are the hardest.”
Baby Turtle: “What exactly am I suppose to do?”
Sammy: “One flipper before the other.”
This is the day I dread
I feel turmoil inside
Headaches, pounding and restless heart
Butterflies in the stomach
The good and the bad fighting
A voice is saying it is all in the head and everything will be fine
Focusing on the worries/fears only magnifies it
It is not real… It is just mere imagination
Do not resist
Every little thing happens for a reason
Trust your journey
Conquer the negative emotions
You are more than what you think
You are capable of things you can not imagine
Embrace the present
Strike out other concerns to stay focus
Holy Ghost guide my every thoughts, actions, and words
From this day forward…
A very good friend of mine came to visit me last weekend. He said he has been reading my blogs. BUT he just wishes something else from my posts. I did not really get what he meant, but I know he meant well. I only got the sense that for him, sometimes, my focus is vague. I love constructive criticism. And to be honest, I never really thought of technicalities. I guess it is getting clearer to me. I am not really writing for someone else… to please people. I am not also considering monetary factor as of now (but if luck will come for reasons I do not know how, I would gladly welcome it). My point is, I am expressing myself. I am letting my thoughts and feelings out. Just like how I did when I was writing in my diary when I was growing up. Each post is a reflection of what is happening in me, inside my head and my heart, a reflection of my journey. It may be pretty to some but lacking sense to somebody else. There is no right or wrong. It does not really matter. I am expressing myself and sharing it to the world and to the Universe. Who knows it can lift spirit of someone who has a similar journey as mine. I know you understand what I mean. I am sure some of you are writing for the same reasons.
Enjoying the comfort of the cool breeze on my skin
With the company of two little kids playing around
Hoping to feel happy and at peace even after today
And still to see beauty in every single way…
Have a blessed day to my fellow bloggers and readers
May we always find inspiration as we go by our day.
I love this comment from my fellow blogger, Alan. A very beautiful line as I pray for peace and that I would like to share.
The lasting peace found in Him, which is an inner calm in the midst of any storm of life.
You can check out his blog: https://amlifcar41.wordpress.com/