I will be gone for a while around 2-3 weeks to attend to a family matter. I am not sure if I will be able to blog anytime soon. My mind and my heart are filled with thoughts and feelings that I would love to express. For now, I am just feeling them and going through the experience: hopeful for a good news, sacrificing being away from my children, who are my life, and going through some changes.
Farewell for now. I will be back as soon as I can.
I am double sad…. First, my dad is still in the hospital. I still hope he will be better. I hope he will be healed and will regain his health. The good thing is I will be flying back home but I have to leave my kids behind. It is my very first time to be away from them and it drives me crazy. Separation anxiety. But I should keep thinking that all these things happen for a reason.
Yesterday was a feast, a joyous celebration. Then a shift to sadness. That’s how life can be. It is a combination of all these different experiences, different emotions/feelings.
I was happy last weekend since my child celebrated his seventh birthday. It is a reward for parents to see their children growing and reaching their milestones. But just right after that, I felt pain and sadness. I received news that my Dad is not doing well back in Manila.
He started with his kidney dialysis in March, alongside with diabetes and heart concerns. When his appendix ruptured last year, he almost died due to so many complications after the surgery. But then he survived. We are grateful God has given him another year. And now he is back in the hospital again. Water retention in his lungs often occurs. He could not breathe and he was rushed to the hospital. It happened two weeks ago. After which, he was cleared by the doctors to go home . Yesterday was worse. They said his face was almost grey, finding it hard to catch breath. The diagnosis now is Pneumonia. probably he got it from the hospital since he regularly goes there for his kidney dialysis twice a week. They put a tube (intubation) in his mouth so he can breathe and have enough Oxygen for his body. They put some tube in his nose too so his body can receive food. My Dad hates hospitals and all these procedures. My brother saw tears fell from my Dad’s eyes. As of now, they are giving him lots of antibiotics to cure the Pneumonia. Hopefully, his body will respond to the medicine. If not… I will have to fly back home as soon as possible. It breaks my heart now. But I know we will get by. I just pray that God will heal him soon… I do not want to think about death. But we were told by the doctor of the possibility. But I do not want to entertain that thought. And I guess it is but natural for us humans to evade pain. I was asking myself this morning, dying is as natural as a baby being born. But how come it is always never easy to accept?…. I was at the backyard earlier and I saw the beautiful sunset. But this time I do not feel so glad about it. I felt the sadness…
I took this picture from my Dad’s house. Our backyard looks out a view of Manila bay.
My mom and my mother-in-law have been here for more than a month now. They came to visit for my son’s birthday. And for my daughter’s birthday in August.
It is nice to have them with us. They are part of the family. But can anyone tell how I feel after a month of us three bumping at each other in my kitchen? One even said next time you should have a bigger kitchen….Hearing unsolicited advices/comments from time to time about different things (my kids, the house, etc.)? Yada yada yada….
They are moms but….I can’t wait for that time when I will be alone and quiet again! I kinda miss it already. LOL!
Last Saturday we celebrated my first born’s 7th birthday. It was attended by his 30 closest friends. It was held at Fun City, an indoor play area.
Before I planned his birthday, we came up with a long list of themes. He kept changing his mind. And finally, he decided that he would go with STAR WARS. He is an avid fan. He watched the movie, the cartoons in Netflix, and read almost all the books!
So I researched (google) ideas for his birthday. I came up with the following food: Padawan Pizza, Millenium Mac and Cheese, Jedi Robes (Spring Rolls), Jello-Carbonite, Asteroid Candies, Hans Rolos, Jar Jar Jelly Beans, Wookie Water, Jedi Juice. I was so busy during the celebration, and I can not believe I forgot to take photos of these! Hopefully, after I compile photos I may be able to update and upload some of them here.
Below are some of the ones I was able to take pictures of:
Jabba Hut-dogs by my Mom
Cupcakes made by my friend
I printed this out and attached it to his party favors : )
That’s all I have to share! You guys have a great week!
I am a very private person. I guess it is my personality. I was born like it. In addition, I believe the “bringing up” factor counts since my father was a lawyer/agent so we were taught (indirectly) not to be too trusting with the surroundings, with people/strangers. Be more vigilant and careful especially growing up in the Philippines.
I deactivated my Facebook account because I felt it was too much, too social. In fairness, Facebook helps you quickly reach out to anyone since a lot of people are practically using it. Anyway I survived not using it for more than a year now and I felt happier.
Honestly, I was hesitant putting up personal photos here or even my real name. However, I thought that if people want to truly see and feel my messages or my sincerity, there should be honesty. Some personal touch. So I decided to put my name on it. Added my photo on the profile. On the 8th month of actively blogging, I posted a personal photo. Hooray!
I know that there are advantages and disadvantages of using social media. I am hesitant but at the back of my head I am thinking that if you really want to connect to people, you have to share a part of you (while still being careful, while still protecting your privacy).
I only have WordPress and Instagram to connect to you. I am already happy with these 2. You can add me up if you are using Instagram! khris_79!
I love any kind of music. It touches my soul. It is like painting. It transports you into a different world.
When I was in college (around 19 years ago) I fell in love with this music. I can still hear it in my head. I guess, I can never be tired listening to this. It will always be considered as one of my all time favorites. It is so beautiful, I guess a little bit sad. I feel so much love and longing. It can always make me cry.
It is from the movie, Love Affair, a romantic drama film from 1994. It starred Warren Beatty and Annette Benning. The music I fell in love with was composed by Ennio Morricone.
Sharing it with you. I hope you like it. Tell me what you think : )