Exactly a week ago, we physically said goodbye to our father. It was his interment. Everyday, sadness is a constant feeling in my heart. Mommy Eve and my siblings also feel the same way. We have to deal with it everyday. Memories flood me. I look at his pictures everyday…
I was at the park last Tuesday morning at 8:30 am. While I was looking at the beautiful view, the trees, the magnificent skies, I was remembering that it was the time last week that I was at the Intensive Care Unit watching my father die.
Sometimes it still feels very surreal, how the present time suddenly becomes a past.Β I close my eyes and I see I was crying at the airport. Next I see my Tatay suffering everyday. Then I see myself looking at his lifeless body. Followed by the wake and then the burial. Now I am back to my life here in the US carrying all these memories in my heart.
This morning I organized my closet. I set aside all my colorful clothes and put out the black, white, and greys. It is part of the culture/tradition in the Philippines when mourning to wear these colors for a year. So for this remaining year and until August 5, 2016 I shall have my new “wardrobe”. I love wearing bright colors but this time, the black, white and grey completely describe how I feel about losing my father.
I know things will get better in time.Β I will just have to go through this. This is part of living, part of being alive. To experience loss of a loved one.
Trivia (Lifted from https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mourning#Philippines)
So sorry for your loss. Bless you and your family.
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So sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is so difficult. Prayers for you.
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Thank you!
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Bless you! You are way strong. π
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Thank you, I appreciate it…
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We must always be prepared for such losses and if we accept that they are part of life they will hurt less. As you say it will get better with time because time heals everything.
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I believe it Piero… Thank you..
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My heart breaks with yours. Eternal rest grant unto your Tatay and let perpetual light shine upon him. May he rest in peace and may all who love and miss him be comforted in their time of need.
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I appreciate your sympathy… Thank you
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My privilege. And my prayers continue for you and yours.
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Thank you for the prayer..
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You’re welcome and my prayers continue…
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Again I’m so sorry for your loss, I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through, If you ever need anything at all please don’t hesitate to ask, I’ll always be here (hugs)!
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I know that Andy.. Thank you for the kind words..
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Always, Khristine π
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