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She was laying in bed. On her side. Weeping. And there was an embrace from behind. She looked over and saw her Dad. Comforting her saying in Filipino, “Ganyan talaga hija.” (That’s how it is, my daughter)
And she woke up from her sleep. She felt happy that at least she gets to see him in her dreams…
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It is almost Christmas time!
Busy shopping and wrapping presents
Sales in stores are everywhere
Acquiring material things is truly exciting
We get new things, more other things.
I know it is a cliche but now I realize
Happiness and joy is more than that
It goes beyond material possessions
Something beyond what you can see and hold.
The other day I was all smiles
They delivered my new pet.
Zooming around the house,
I was singing in joy while pushing it around.
I felt very happy…
When I was a little girl I was thrilled with gifts like toys or new clothes
I felt equally the same when I got my new cleaning vacuum : )
This morning I had a “disciplining” moment with my boy
Just right before he went to school.
I do not like feeling mad and sad.
I felt my chest so tight.
And to relieve the stress
I started moving the furniture around.
My little girl asked, “Mommy why are you moving stuff?”
She was jumping on the couch and having a great time.
I rearranged the living room and gave it a different look!
Now I feel recharged.
I believe I am really getting old…
Vacuum and rearranging the house?
I feel it was unleashing my creativity.
Now I feel happy again.
Exactly four months ago at this very time the most terrifying thing in my life was happening. Standing outside of the ICU watching everything. My Dad’s final hour.
Eternal rest grant unto Atty. Hermoso Tan Lazaro Oh Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon him. May his soul rest in peace.
From today, going back to the time when the first human beings existed, how many people have already lived on Earth?
“According to the United Nations, world population reached 7 Billion on October 31, 2011…According to the most recent estimates, the human population of the world is expected to reach 8 billion people in the spring of 2024.” (http://www.worldometers.info). This is nine years from now.
How many people are born each day and how many pass away? From prehistory/ancient history up to the present we call The Social Age.I wonder about each life, each mind, each heart that roamed around this home we call Earth. The richest, the greatest of minds, the most inspiring souls we have ever known.
I see how the fleeting glance of each moment pass by. And altogether creating the most meaningful and beautiful experience we call life.
Human life is very short compared to other creations or organisms.“Worldwide, the average life expectancy at birth was 71.0 years (68.5 years for males and 73.5 years for females) over the period 2010–2013 according to United Nations World Population Prospects 2012 Revision, or 70.7 years (68.2 years for males and 73.2 years for females) for 2009 according to The World Factbook.
Wishing each person living will be awakened to this fact and hopefully drives him to progress, to be better, but also to be kinder, be more human, and to seize each waking moment to be happy and loving to the people around him. Maybe then who needs violence? Who needs war?
Where can you really be?
Is there really a heaven somewhere out there?
Where you meet the other ones
Where you laugh with the angels
And pray with the saints?
Or is it somewhere else any man has never imagined?
I hope the time spent here is not just everything
I hope it is not the end of it all
But if in case it is, then you still shall live
As long as I breathe
Today marks my First Anniversary here in WordPress!
I can not believe that it has already been a year!
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I just want to say thank you for being a friend to me on this journey.
I thank words for helping me express my thoughts and emotions
and for keeping my sanity,
deepening my appreciation for life
I hope I have inspired someone along the way. This would really make me happy.
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I will continue to write as long as I can for words will surely live longer than me.
Words last forever.
I want my children, grandchildren, my descendants, family and friends to have a glimpse of who I am.
Something that my ancestors did not have. Yes, I see some of their photos or I know them by name.
But with words, it goes beyond that.
For now, continue to live life. Be inspired. Embrace it and all the people who journey with us.
God bless us all : )
A friend visited me last year. He was my Professor from College until in the Graduate School. He works now in a University here in the US. He was even one of my mentors when I did my paper. With God’s help, I was able to finish the degree Master of Science in Psychology Major in Psychological Measurement. and I was able to do work for seven years related to the field.
So when I got married and started a family, there have been changes. I joke about it a lot with my husband. I tell him that I have the best education/career ever. Master of Science in Child Rearing and Housekeeping! And I have been an Administrator for years now running a house from food, to clothes, family schedules, child education, and everything! For free! (except when I go online shopping).
Seriously, when I see posts from social media how some of my friends have advanced in their careers, I ask myself how do I feel about myself. Yes sometimes I would imagine how I would be like if I chose a different path. Then I would ask are we here because of our choice or we are just destined to be where we are right now… or a combination of both?
I believe that one should just do his/her best each time, in every moment or chapter of life. And try to appreciate the now, where you are right now. It is true that when you count your blessings and appreciate all that you have, you will feel happy. Contented.
There is always a reason to smile.
Once again, I just realized something last night. After I put the kids to sleep, I sat down on the couch to have a little quiet time. My eyes gazed upon the pictures of these men from the little corner of our room.
From the left is my father-in-law and then my dad. It was just last night that I realized that I was the last family member to see them before they both passed away. So it feels weird and more sad to know that I witnessed their last moments.
It was afternoon. I was home with my father-in-law, and my husband was still at work. I was in the living room and he told me that he was going out to get those gallons of water from a nearby store. He had a little pushing cart with him. It was passed 2pm so I told him why not wait for his son so he did not have to walk? It was April 24, 2007. He said it was fine and besides, he needed to exercise. He told me he was going to go through the back door, and then he left. And at passed 3pm, he had an accident on the road and that was his end.
As for my Dad, for those of you who have not read my recent blogs, he just passed away two months ago. And with his passing, I wrote quite a few things about the experience and about him (you can check this entry: 14 day journey). Last August 4, 2015 (Tuesday) he had to undergo Tracheostomy. A tracheostomy is a surgery to make a hole in your neck that goes into your windpipe. He needed a tracheostomy since he was on a breathing machine (ventilator) for a long time. They needed to remove the intubator that was attached to him for two weeks to prevent further infections. I was informed that I should follow down to the operating room. I was there waiting outside. I was praying and thinking about him that finally, he would be relieved to get that thing off him. I waited and finally the doctor called me in to tell me that the procedure was done and everything was fine. I was so relieved. I waited until I saw him and the nurses pushing his bed. They had to give him Oxygen since he was depending on the breathing machine. They took the elevator and I took the stairs to meet them at the Intensive Care Unit. He was unconscious and I was watching him. The nurse was checking everything. She told me to rest and everything is stable with my dad. I sent text messages to my siblings to tell them that the procedure was successful and we can all go to sleep. I think it was around 10:30pm. Then after one hour, it was the end of his dear life.
For sure I will never forget these last moments…
I am so amazed how my little girl (who is 3 years old and 2 months) has become potty trained! Remember around the second week of September I posted about focusing on her potty training? In three weeks she already know! So now we only use diaper at night time when she sleeps (just to be safe) and during times when I know we’ll be out of the house for a while.
At first I would regularly make her sit down, but now she tells me whenever she needs to go. I am just surprised because with my first born, it took a while before he learned. As I remember, it was almost a year for him.
Kids are so different (as most of the parents know) when it comes to personalities, learning, development. In terms of academics, my first born is way advance. Before he turned 3 years old, he already spelled, wrote, and read. As for my girl, we are still working on these things. But we are getting there : )
The little things that make me smile.
Hope something or someone is making your day brighter too!!!
K.Lazaro 