Ordinary Day

I wish I can talk about something else just like before. Seeing beauty in simple things, so much positivity striving to live a more meaningful life. 

Honestly I am not sure what I feel at present. Definitely it is not vibrant and lovely.  There are days it feels just so ordinary. I go on with my routine taking care of my family and our home. Alongside with it, there are minor distractions. At least I try to convince my mind that it is just minor and does not deserve my energy… But yes, life goes on. It will never pause, never stop even if you lose something or someone. I am living the reality of life. Trying to just move along, going with the flow. Ignoring what is inside, maybe a turmoil, some sadness and darkness. 

The other day I just burst into tears. I usually do not cry. And if I do, it is just for a while. A memory suddenly came to me. I remember maybe it was last Fathers Day, when I was on the phone with my Dad. I just told him I am planning to visit him next year and I could not figure out yet the schedule. I had to wait for my son’s school calendar and work out my visit. I remember he said, “Okay, I’ll be here…” 

Excuse Note

I used to read my fellow bloggers’ posts to get insights, wisdom, and inspiration everyday. I have not been too active these past few weeks. I would like to apologize for not being around, for not visiting your sites often. Soon, I will get back on track. With my Dad’s passing, I am just existing and going with the flow.

I know you will all still be there after this. Keep shining and inspiring!

Farewell For Now

I will be gone for a while around 2-3 weeks to attend to a family matter. I am not sure if I will be able to blog anytime soon. My mind and my heart are filled with thoughts and feelings that I would love to express. For now, I am just feeling them and going through the experience: hopeful for a good news, sacrificing being away from my children, who are my life, and going through some changes.

Farewell for now. I will be back as soon as I can.

A Sad Night

I am double sad…. First, my dad is still in the hospital. I still hope he will be better. I hope he will be healed and will regain his health. The good thing is I will be flying back home but I have to leave my kids behind. It is my very first time to be away from them and it drives me crazy. Separation anxiety. But I should keep thinking that all these things happen for a reason. 

Heaven In Your Arms

Cuddling with my sweet girl is one of my favorite things to do.  From my experience, I can say that Having a boy is different from having a girl in some ways. With girls, you get to dress them up, style them, do “girly” stuff/play together. They are usually mellow than the boys. It is true for me  so I am more “relaxed” with her. They are such darlings and very sweet especially to their daddies. Mine is definitely a daddy’s girl!

With my son, I usually need to keep up with his energy, with his inquisitive mind, with his talking and moving around. He seems more dependent than his little sister.  Calls my attention all the time. I guess he is a mommy’s boy. Although now that he is turning 7, I notice that we argue a lot. He is really challenging my patience. He is strong willed and … He is just growing fast. And yes, before I realize it, my baby girl will be too.

I notice I am starting to have strands of white hair. Found two strands recently! Being a parent can be so hard! I am not complaining, but just expressing. It is really exhausting but rewarding too (mixed emotions – driving me crazy). It is a big responsibility raising children. We are responsible for their well being, to provide them with their needs not just material but emotional, intellectual, spiritual and others. It is truly a mission to raise human beings who can thrive in this difficult and yet wonderful life, who will be happy, successful, and kindhearted people. May God bless and help each parent on earth!

I have a long way to go. For now, while they are little, I will have to enjoy the moments cuddling with them! Heaven is here 💕

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Goosebumps

What are goosebumps? 

I have been having it for the third day usually only on the right side of my body particularly the right arm. 

When I was growing up they say if you have goosebumps, there are spirits around you. But I am sure there is a physical explanation I yet need to research on.

I hope your day is going well and do not forget to enjoy each breathing moment. 

My Blog’s Content

A very good friend of mine came to visit me last weekend. He said he has been reading my blogs. BUT he just wishes something else from my posts. I did not really get what he meant, but I know he meant well. I only got the sense that for him, sometimes, my focus is vague. I love constructive criticism. And to be honest, I never really thought of technicalities. I guess it is getting clearer to me. I am not really writing for someone else… to please people. I am not also considering monetary factor as of now (but if luck will come for reasons I do not know how, I would gladly welcome it). My point is, I am expressing myself. I am letting my thoughts and feelings out. Just like how I did when I was writing in my diary when I was growing up. Each post is a reflection of what is happening in me, inside my head and my heart, a reflection of my journey. It may be pretty to some but lacking sense to somebody else. There is no right or wrong. It does not really matter. I am expressing myself and sharing it to the world and to the Universe. Who knows it can lift spirit of someone who has a similar journey as mine. I know you understand what I mean. I am sure some of you are writing for the same reasons.

Simple Life

I asked permission from one of my favorite bloggers that I would post his comment ( I have not received his response yet but I think he would not mind at all. ). Honestly, he has always given me wisdom and great advices here on WordPress. Just as how I appreciate my fellow bloggers who unselfishly share their insights. You might not be aware of how your words can help a fellow human being. So, Thanks Piero and to all of my fellow bloggers who are always here to give their help and appreciation.

Please check out Piero’s https://controversialcook.wordpress.com/about-blog-2/

I strongly feel that I need to share this for some other readers who might realize something about it just like me. MIND YOU, We are not anti rich. Our point in here is just being happy even with the simplest things.

My previous post (Nonsense) was talking about me dreaming of how it feels like to be rich and famous. And if the rich and famous are thinking about living an ordinary life just like mine. Here is what Piero shared to me:

“Millionaires, billionaires and famous people are full of problems, Basically it’s a curse. They live in constant fear of becoming poor, they mix only with people like themselves and are besieged by all sorts of dishonest manipulative people who try to use them or get money out of them, They also have no privacy and have to go around with bodyguards or minders and live in houses that are basically fortresses. It has been scientifically proved that after a person has enough to afford the basic necessities for living money doesn’t add anything to his/her happiness.
Stay ordinary, believe me that it’s the best life.”

Positive Outlook

It takes effort and work to train your mind to be positive.

Starts with awareness and dedication to help yourself become a better person.

Feeding yourself with inspiration and motivation

Casting out negative thoughts and emotions

Accepting that this dark side is part of our existence But never agree to dwell in it.

If we do, then we will lose in the battle.

We have to learn how to fight these things or people pulling us down.

The fight that comes within ourselves.

By having a positive outlook, equipped to survive and thrive

Each and every challenge we face in our journey.

While our eyes affixed on the beauty of life and living

Breathing with a happy heart filled with love and kindness

It is never easy

But seems worth a try

It is possible

We can start from now…