Gift of Life

Last night, I found out that a person I knew just passed away. He had a heart attack last week. I could not stop thinking about him because exactly three months ago he was at my father’s wake trying to help out. Who would ever think that he will be gone?  Truly death comes like a thief in the night.

At this point in my life, I just figured out my greatest fear. To see a loved one gone, and the thought of leaving my family behind. With my father’s passing, I often think about things pertaining to the after life, about our existence, and some other “weird” things. It is like seeing things differently. Talking to my  husband keeps me grounded. He would plainly state that it is the reality of life. So he does not really think or worry about it. That it is something that we should accept. Maybe I am just about to learn that step.

Last night I told him about one of the things I always pray for. And I said he should pray the same thing so it makes us two. I said I hope we will be blessed together with a long life (I state specifically at least 90 years old) so we can see our children and grand children grow. He replied, “Whatever is God’s will.”

Now, when I kiss or embrace my family, it feels more than that. When I say some good words to a friend or to a relative, I truly mean it. Slowly, my heart is learning how to forgive and how to sing to each waking moment.

This song was in my head when I woke up and I feel the need to share it. It is a beautiful Filipino gospel song. I really love the acoustic version but unfortunately, there is no vocal. For non-Filipino speakers, I included an English translation below. I hope you do enjoy the music.

Sino Ako?

Hiram sa Diyos ang aking buhay
Ikaw at ako’y tanging handog lamang
Di ko ninais na ako’y isilang
Ngunit salamat dahil my buhay
Ligaya ko na ako’y isilang
Pagkat tao ay mayroong dangal
Sino’ng may pag-ibig?
Sino’ng nagmahal?Kun’di ang tao Diyos ang pinagmulan

Kun’di ako umiibig
Kundi ko man bigyang halaga
Ang buhay na handog
Ang buhay kong hiram sa Diyos
Kundi ako nagmahal
Sino Ako?

Who Am I? (English translation)

My life is only borrowed from God
We’re only a living sacrifice
I did not wish to be born but it’s
A God given blessing to have a life
I am glad that I was born…
I am born with dignity
I have love and I know how to love
Because God first loved me

If I didn’t know how to love
If I didn’t know how to be grateful of
The life that God has given me
Then what is my worth?

Positive Outlook

It takes effort and work to train your mind to be positive.

Starts with awareness and dedication to help yourself become a better person.

Feeding yourself with inspiration and motivation

Casting out negative thoughts and emotions

Accepting that this dark side is part of our existence But never agree to dwell in it.

If we do, then we will lose in the battle.

We have to learn how to fight these things or people pulling us down.

The fight that comes within ourselves.

By having a positive outlook, equipped to survive and thrive

Each and every challenge we face in our journey.

While our eyes affixed on the beauty of life and living

Breathing with a happy heart filled with love and kindness

It is never easy

But seems worth a try

It is possible

We can start from now…

Afternoon Inspiration

Close your eyes

Be conscious of your breathing

Breathe in the gift of life

Exhale all negative things inside

In your thoughts, in your heart

Let the breeze embrace you

Let the energy envelope you

You are alive

You are blessed to be here

Be glad for this one time journey…

Ordinarily Special Day

Look around you and find something beautiful today!

June 11, 2015 (Thursday)

As I played with my little girl at the park this morning,

As I watered the plants in our backyard

As I harvested these little bright red chillies

As they made their way to my empty bottle

Have a good life fellow travelers!

Quick Break – Short Post

I feel like I have been chasing time. I did not even have the time to write my thoughts.And yet, still a lot of things to do. And the day is almost done. Why am I so busy? I guess it is better than have nothing to do? So I took my energy boosting vitamins! I need it.

It is the start of the week. May we all be productive while we feel happy and blessed. Challenges, problems? I will keep fighting you! You may scare me, and make me feel anxious, but I say, you can not defeat me. Life is still beautiful. And my spirit is growing and evolving. I am empowered.

Life Is Beautiful

My husband and I have been watching the TV series, Tudors  for a while now. I find it very interesting since it talks about historical facts. This is about the Tudor Dynasty which ruled the Kingdom of England and its realms.

One scene that struck me (which I find relevant to our life) is when Catherine Howard, the King’s fifth wife,  was about to be executed. Catherine was beheaded after less than two years of marriage to Henry on the grounds of treason for committing adultery while married to the King. Before she died, she looked up in the skies and said, “Life is Beautiful.”  

Those words… As the saying goes, “You will never know what you have until it is gone.”

Through all the good and ALSO the bad, life is still beautiful. To be alive is a gift! Let us be grateful.

Why Do I Write?

I WRITE BECAUSE

I have my quiet time  (baby is napping)

I am bored

I am inspired

I am hurt

I am happy

I am annoyed

I am grateful

I am blessed

I am feeling

I am thinking

I am recording my experiences

I want to connect

I want to share

I want to learn

I am free

I am ALIVE!

It surely is nice to have many followers. It is tempting to focus on getting the stats up but I keep reminding myself, I am doing this for me. I am here to savor my journey through life. I am hoping my children will read this someday, and learn so much about their mother. It can also be nice that friends or family can get to know me more as well. I will be happy even if I get to inspire one person. I will be glad to have one person learn something or be comforted with my words. I hope to spread good vibes, to let you know that you are not alone. We share experiences, both pleasant and BAD. It is all good!!!

Have a blessed day!