What I Felt A Few Nights Ago

One of the hardest battles in this life

Is the battle within oneself

The conflicting mind and heart

The push and the pull

Even after getting drunk,

and the body feels numb,

The only thing you feel

In the center of your being

Is the pain beating in the heart

Emotions

Needing all the courage and strength

To look at his face

To hear his voice again

And listen to every word he utters

His presence is a reminder of the dark past I despise

The place I never want to see again

The time I never want to be in again.

Needs a lot of kindness

To be human again

To learn how to forgive

To give peace a chance

The head says go

The heart says no

Emotions beaten up

It is time to give up