|I am not sure what reminded me of this poem earlier, and it got stuck in my head. It is a very cute poem I remember from high school in my English Literature class. I must found it really nice since I can not forget it from more than two decades ago. When love was young…
Enjoy and sweetest dreams to everyone!!!!
Because You Kissed Me Good Night
|by Sandy Roistan|
|I climbed the door
And opened the stairs
I said my pajamas
And put on my prayers
Then turned off my bed
And crawled into the light
All because you kissed me good-night
Next morning, I woke
That evening, at last,
How did I end up with you? Is it just my choice or is it destiny? As I ponder about it, I realized that circumstances, time, heart and decisions led me to your arms. I conclude then that it is destiny!
I remember how young I was when I had my first love. I thought that it is going to be forever him and me. I was in a bubble, living in a perfect world. But growing up and knowing what you want can truly change everything. It burst that bubble.
I thought he was my soul mate, I guess both of us did. Happiness was felt whenever we were near. Our hearts spoke to each other, but no words were spoken. I saw how much he cared. He made me happy. But I was confused. Then the fickle minded me…
A good friend I fell in like with or maybe even in love. I eas not sure. Mixed signals, mixed emotions or it was just me. He who regarded me as his confidante, disappeared and got married to the love of his life.
He lived far away but we kept in touch. Phone calls, chat, emails and sending photos. I know I liked him but I see something else. We were way different in so many ways. I did not mind our difference. I still hoped for love. Then not knowing what happened we it just slipped away.
I wished for a sign from God. Will he please send me dear Lord a bouquet of red roses? That day did not happen and I was heart broken. I guess I will give up looking for that love.
A few weeks after, my friend Lyn had a call. It was our old friend who just came to visit from abroad. She handed me the phone and we casually said our hello’s. Then he planned a surprise party for Lyn and her boyfriend.
It was dark but there were candles that led up to the rooftop. It was a lovely surprise dinner for the couple we love. Chris handed the beautiful flowers then the engagement ring to the woman of his life.
And as to my surprise, Archie came to me. He handed me a bouquet of beautiful red roses! At that time, honestly, I did not realize that God sent me the sign that I was looking for.
I realized about the roses when we were already married. Then my life/love story began…
She came back from a vacation abroad. She heard that there was a new guy at work, and they said that he was a heartthrob. She did not really care.
The next day, she was called for a meeting. She sat across the new guy. In her mind she thought, ” Fine. He is cute.” The meeting was adjourned. The new guy approached her. He introduced himself. She thought it was nice of him to do that. They talked for a while, and they hit it off.
Almost everyday, he would visit her in her cubicle at work. He would share pastries or coffee or just engage in small talks during breaks. Months and years passed by. Their friendship remained. Unconsciously, she liked him. She would deny it but eventually she was having feelings. She thought, maybe she was just fond of his ways. Moreover, there was no way of liking him because he had a girl friend. He talked about her. She thought, “maybe he looks at me like a sister”, but honestly she thought there were mixed signals. He would talk to her about his girl friend, call her up whenever they were having problems. He would seek for advice. He would share his secrets (both nice and bad) to her. They were good friends.
One day, after work, as she was heading towards her car, she heard a voice behind her. It was the girl friend. It was the second time she met her. The first time was when the guy introduced them during an office event. The girl looked so worried, mad, confused, jealous. She just let her feelings out.The guy found them talking. He was embarrassed that his girlfriend had to confront her. He assured her nothing was going on between them.
After that incident, little by little the guy kept his distance. He no longer dropped by her cubicle or share coffee/pastries or engage in small talks. One day, he just informed her that they were getting married. She was shocked, but she was expecting it. Did it hurt? Maybe a little. Her heart was broken. She moved on… After her long term relationship, she still prayed harder to find her soul mate, that man who is meant for her.
After a few months, she reconnected with a friend. And he found her! Everything fell into place. It was magical. She got married the following year. At present, they are happily married for 10 years, with three kids. Sometimes, she would still remember that new guy from work. It makes her smile, and she still ask herself if somewhere along the way, did he have feelings for her too? Was she in like or in love with him? It was in the past. It will always be a special memory.
Welcome to my own little world. I am sure my life is unique but definitely we still share some things in common. In the morning, I am usually busy in the kitchen cooking and making breakfast for the family. Next getting my son ready for school or bible class, dropping him off to school, running errands (usually grocery), cleaning up the house (I won’t go into details. I tend to be a neat freak!), taking care of my toddler, picking up my son from school, cooking dinner, giving the kids a bath, and putting them to bed. When they are fast asleep (one of my favorite times) I enjoy watching recorded TV shows with my hubby while having a beer or two. Oh I forgot, somewhere in there, I try to work on my blog too. Basically this is the routine everyday. Why and I mentioning these? Because in the midst of my routine, today, something special happened to me… There was a break and it inspired me to write.
I felt something we call “kilig” in the Philippines. I am not sure what is the exact word for it in English, so I quickly looked up for a description from urbandictionary.com.
When kilig, one may experience the following:
*butterflies in one’s stomach
*shivers down one’s spine
*irrepressible noises from one’s mouth
*an inner conflict between hope of something wished for and realityKilig may also be defined as that mountain top, floating, on cloud nine, invincible, i-could-keep-smiling, heart aching goodness and feeling which overpowers the mind’s ability to think straight, act straight, breathe properly and articulate thoughts into a single comprehensible sentence”.
For me, kilig is one of the most beautiful human experiences. I am certain, sometime in your life you have felt this with someone. It reminded me of my younger days, of those love and inspiration, love letters, phone calls, surprise visits, when the heart would beat so fast to the point that you could hear it.I recall having felt this so many times with my first relationship, with a very special friendship, unspoken feelings, mutual understandings, and definitely towards the man I married. Yes that is “kilig”! This morning, I received a message from my sister. She said she has a Christmas present for me! I saw my phone and there was a special video message from my long time crush! He is one of the most sought eligible bachelor in the movie industry in Manila (special mention to Piolo Jose Pascual). He made me smile and brought back those nice feelings. Special thanks to my sister for knowing how to “tickle” me. This is one unique early Christmas gift. Thanks to Instagram, now you can follow celebrities. It makes you feel close to them when you see their personal photos and messages. It makes you feel like you can truly reach for the stars. You are lucky when they get to reply to your comment. I guess the social media is really a powerful tool connecting people in some level.
Now I am back to my reality. As I write this article, my children won’t stop calling me to play with them. Ciao! Until next time!
Appreciate little things in life. Be young at heart!