Anticipating, thinking about the concept of fear, discomfort, anxiety makes me really feel it for real. Having a headache now getting worried about my concern. I am aware it must be all in the mind. Focus. Be courageous. And remember all those inspirations and lessons I have been holding to. But too much rationalizing makes me tired and sleepy. I noticed since I was very young, when I had concerns, problems, heartaches, I felt sleepy most of the time. Maybe tired from thinking?
Let me just worry tomorrow. I will sleep now so my mind and body will work efficiently… and will be rational! I know after the upcoming storm, no matter how long it would stay, I would still be alive and I will survive.
“No matter who you are, no matter what you have, no matter what you’ve achieved, you’ve hurt at some point in your life. Of the six universal emotions psychologists have identified – happiness, sadness, surprise, fear, disgust, and anger – the majority indicate pain.”
From Tiny Buddha by Lori Deschene
We have to “educate” ourselves and be aware that this is the reality, and we can not do away with discomfort, pain or suffering. We have to accept it as part of our existence. But it does not mean we should be miserable. We have a choice only if we teach our minds. For some people it is so natural to have a healthy perspective. Based on my experience, I am blessed to have a husband who can focus on what is most important in our life. I am the opposite. I am a worrier, I am anxious, I over think. I am writing because this is part of me training myself. I am teaching myself. We have to channel our thoughts, emotions, energy to the positive or good side. This is a challenge to us. Teaching our minds and being more hopeful/prayerful/spiritual. There is always a battle within and outside. We all hope to triumph. By having peace and living in peace.