Last night, I found out that a person I knew just passed away. He had a heart attack last week. I could not stop thinking about him because exactly three months ago he was at my father’s wake trying to help out. Who would ever think that he will be gone? Truly death comes like a thief in the night.
At this point in my life, I just figured out my greatest fear. To see a loved one gone, and the thought of leaving my family behind. With my father’s passing, I often think about things pertaining to the after life, about our existence, and some other “weird” things. It is like seeing things differently. Talking to my husband keeps me grounded. He would plainly state that it is the reality of life. So he does not really think or worry about it. That it is something that we should accept. Maybe I am just about to learn that step.
Last night I told him about one of the things I always pray for. And I said he should pray the same thing so it makes us two. I said I hope we will be blessed together with a long life (I state specifically at least 90 years old) so we can see our children and grand children grow. He replied, “Whatever is God’s will.”
Now, when I kiss or embrace my family, it feels more than that. When I say some good words to a friend or to a relative, I truly mean it. Slowly, my heart is learning how to forgive and how to sing to each waking moment.
This song was in my head when I woke up and I feel the need to share it. It is a beautiful Filipino gospel song. I really love the acoustic version but unfortunately, there is no vocal. For non-Filipino speakers, I included an English translation below. I hope you do enjoy the music.
Hiram sa Diyos ang aking buhay
Ikaw at ako’y tanging handog lamang
Di ko ninais na ako’y isilang
Ngunit salamat dahil my buhay
Ligaya ko na ako’y isilang
Pagkat tao ay mayroong dangal
Sino’ng may pag-ibig?
Sino’ng nagmahal?Kun’di ang tao Diyos ang pinagmulan
Kun’di ako umiibig
Kundi ko man bigyang halaga
Ang buhay na handog
Ang buhay kong hiram sa Diyos
Kundi ako nagmahal
Who Am I? (English translation)
My life is only borrowed from God
We’re only a living sacrifice
I did not wish to be born but it’s
A God given blessing to have a life
I am glad that I was born…
I am born with dignity
I have love and I know how to love
Because God first loved me
If I didn’t know how to love
If I didn’t know how to be grateful of
The life that God has given me
Then what is my worth?
I asked permission from one of my favorite bloggers that I would post his comment ( I have not received his response yet but I think he would not mind at all. ). Honestly, he has always given me wisdom and great advices here on WordPress. Just as how I appreciate my fellow bloggers who unselfishly share their insights. You might not be aware of how your words can help a fellow human being. So, Thanks Piero and to all of my fellow bloggers who are always here to give their help and appreciation.
I strongly feel that I need to share this for some other readers who might realize something about it just like me. MIND YOU, We are not anti rich. Our point in here is just being happy even with the simplest things.
My previous post (Nonsense) was talking about me dreaming of how it feels like to be rich and famous. And if the rich and famous are thinking about living an ordinary life just like mine. Here is what Piero shared to me:
“Millionaires, billionaires and famous people are full of problems, Basically it’s a curse. They live in constant fear of becoming poor, they mix only with people like themselves and are besieged by all sorts of dishonest manipulative people who try to use them or get money out of them, They also have no privacy and have to go around with bodyguards or minders and live in houses that are basically fortresses. It has been scientifically proved that after a person has enough to afford the basic necessities for living money doesn’t add anything to his/her happiness. Stay ordinary, believe me that it’s the best life.”
It is once again Spring time! I went to Home Depot and saw all the colorful and beautiful flowers around!
I do not have flowers in my garden. Mostly we planted vegetables. As my husband was preparing the soil, he found this one pretty sunflower in the midst of our “kamote” leaves. How come I did not notice her before? I was happy to find her. She is the only flower in our garden. How did she get there? The birds, the wind, the works of mother nature? I do not know but with this incident, I see a message of hope, that miracles happen, that there is beauty and surprise in life.
Having two little children has kept me abreast of kids’ stuff: nice place for kids, TV shows, nursery rhymes, mobile applications/games, and of course books. I find delight in them. As my children learn and have fun, so do I!
Maybe some of you are already familiar with Pete the Cat. This is one of my favorites. I think it shares a great lesson to people of all ages. For those who have not heard of this, you can check out your local library or this YouTube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9GRHNE1vI4&feature=youtu.be
The story is about Pete, the cat, who goes walking down the street wearing his brand new white shoes. Along the way, his shoes change from white to red to blue to brown to WET as he steps in piles of strawberries, blueberries, and other big messes! But no matter what color his shoes turn to, Pete keeps moving, grooving, and singing his song. This book is teaching the little children about colors, particularly colors of different foods and objects. Going deeper, I see a message even for grown ups. It shows us to have a positive outlook in life. This is what majority of my blogs talk about. No matter how messy life can get, we should not let ourselves be devoured by sadness, hopelessness, and fear. We have to lift ourselves up or help someone else. Just keep going no matter what happens to you in life. Keep fighting the fight, facing each challenge, being the best that we can be whenever, wherever. We are just passing through life. Let us cherish the times we are alive. We aim to be happy and try to be positive.
No matter what you step in, keep walking along and singing your song…because it’s all good.
Enjoy the rest of your day, the rest of the week!
Pete the Cat: I Love My White Shoes is an American children’s picture book written by Eric Litwin and illustrated by James Dean, first published in 2008. Wikipedia
The following are collection of phrases I read somewhere. I usually just put together all these lessons in my head, and try to remember them by heart. Sharing to you some of my favorite credos:
Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a dream. Today is a gift. So live TODAY, be present.
I love this phrase because it guides me when my mind starts to wander off.
It is very nice to reminisce and appreciate your journey by looking back. I often recall some memories in the past from my childhood, teen years, when I started working, the family where I grew up as well as the dearest friends along the way. I can say life was simpler then. Some make me smile, some make me cry. Definitely, looking back makes me understand more my present life. On the other hand, there are times when I keep wondering what my life could have been if I chose a different path. Then I am left with questions, lots of questions of what could have been. Then I go back to my credo. The past is history. I can never go back or change it. It is useless to over think and waste my time and energy about things I can not change.
Every circumstance in our lives (both good and bad) are necessary for us to be where we are right now. There is a reason for every event, every encounter with people who walk on our path.
People come and go in our journey, and some linger for a while. There is still a reason behind. As of now, we do not know why. Only God knows why (by the way, I love this song by Kid Rock. I remember my brother and his friends)! So just welcome the people in your life right now. These are people we love and cherish, and some we might dislike or hate.
It is good to have dreams and hopes. They keep us going. They inspire and motivate us. It surely helps us to have a happier life. And as we have an eye for the future, we should bear more importance on TODAY. If we keep looking back or forward, we might miss out the feeling and the beauty of today. Try to recognize and appreciate the people and things we have right now. We are blessed in so many ways. I believe that if we cultivate in ourselves this way of thinking, we can be happier and satisfied.
Bloom where God planted you. You are special. You are blessed. Refrain from comparing yourself with others. You will either find yourself superior or inferior. You are special. You are blessed.