And She Is Broken

She married him.

They were best friends. They were very much in love. They have been through a lot together. Adventures shared. Tears and laughter. He adores her and we see how he takes care of her.

They tried to have children. Failed twice, souls traumatized. The pain of losing a child is beyond imagination. God is still merciful, the third one made it at last. A beautiful and healthy angel is now in their midst. Now they are complete. They are a family. It is a perfect wonderful world!

It changed in a day. A cheating heart. Betrayal. It crushed her spirit. Numbness. She could not feel anything. Pain, too much pain. But she did not wail, cry, or lash out. Just very sad. Heart torn into pieces.

Giving it a second chance. Struggle everyday. Bitter reminders. Mixed emotions. It is a nightmare. Could not believe it just happened. What to do? Why would you throw something away quickly? People make mistakes. Do not throw everything away. She feels his remorse. He is hurting too but his tears can not take the pain away or undo the damage. Broken trust. She slowly feels the anger. But still longs for healing and forgiveness. She clings to the love they have shared. And chooses to believe in it.

How do you mend a broken heart? A broken spirit? In time. Will love save them? When does a heart finally forgive while the mind does not forget? How do you deal with each day? Reminding you of the mistake or the sin your loved one has caused you?

Then she cries:

“I hope one day soon, all these hate will go away and I can see you again.

I hope one day soon I can look at you again and not see all the reasons why I should hate you.

I hope and I pray that one day soon, I can finally look at you and only see all the reasons why I love you…”

Remember Your Marriage Vow

Our loved ones in life are one of the most importance sources of our happiness. Their love feed our souls. Our relationship with them gives more meaning to our lives. With them we feel safe. We are home. So imagine what it feels like if a loved is the person who hurt you, who betray you?  With this, I say that the greatest pain we can experience is a loved one causing our heartache.

“I take you to be my lawfully wedded(husband/wife), to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part.” The priest will then say aloud “You have declared your consent before the Church. May the Lord in his goodness strengthen your consent and fill you both with his blessings. What God has joined, men must not divide. Amen.

It is unimaginable how can a spouse cheat on his/her partner in life? I know this condition has been in existence from a long time ago and everywhere in the world. I still feel this is not an excuse.  I do not understand why would you fall into this temptation. Why did you let yourself fall into it? Why did you play with fire? Why did you not step back and turn your back? Why did you not value your spouse and everything that you have shared from the beginning you fell in love? Why did you  not value your family, your child,  and the love/respect of everyone? Why did you hurt that person who you intended to grow old with and walk side by side in this journey? Why did you not keep your promises to God and to your spouse? Have you forgotten? Have you seen something new, something exciting? These new things will grow old too. Maybe you have forgotten…

Infidelity is hard to understand. Why it happens.  I would still love to believe that true love will last for eternity. I hope human beings are capable of doing that! If not, I am afraid I am starting to think less of them now. But I will not give in. I would still hope. It saddens me and gives me a heavy heart to know that someone very close to me is hurting. We have not spoken since she prefers to be alone. I said let her feel what she should feel. It is a process. Let her have all the time she needs. As long as she knows we are here. May God strengthen her. Give her wisdom so she will know what to do. Give her courage to stand by her decisions.

God, bless all the married couples. May You keep their love burning for each other. Like a little seed, please take care of them. Make them strong so they will grow and bloom, and stand for life. Let now storm bring them down.