Blabbering Mind

A friend visited me last year. He was my Professor from College until in the Graduate School. He works now in a University here in the US. He was even one of my mentors when I did my paper.  With God’s help, I was able to finish the degree Master of Science in Psychology Major in Psychological Measurement. and I was able to do work for seven years related to the field.

So when I got married and started a family,  there have been changes. I joke about it a lot with my husband. I tell him that I have the best education/career ever. Master of Science in Child Rearing and Housekeeping! And I have been an Administrator for years now running a house from food, to clothes, family schedules, child education, and everything! For free! (except when I go online shopping).

Seriously, when I see posts from social media how some of my friends have advanced in their careers, I ask myself how do I feel about myself. Yes sometimes I would imagine how I would be like if I chose a different path. Then I would ask are we here because of our choice or we are just destined to be where we are right now… or a combination of both?

I believe that one should just do his/her best each time, in every moment or chapter of life. And try to appreciate the now, where you are right now. It is true that when you count your blessings and appreciate all that you have, you will feel happy. Contented.

There is always a reason to smile.

What Lies Ahead Of Us?

I was born and raised Catholic. I firmly believe in God. However, this playful mind of mine never stops going some places far. In my heart I know God fully understands. He never gets mad about questions. I believe that’s what makes us special. We think. So my thoughts here are independent of my belief. Some questions just floating in my head.

With the loss of a loved one, I am thinking if there is really an after life. Is there really a soul. If there is, where does it go? What happens to it?  When we talk about our faith, I know the answer is: the soul goes to heaven, hell, or  Purgatory. Does the soul recognize his/her loved ones left on earth? Does he/she still get to see them?  I have read some stories about near death experiences of people and they usually report the same things: light, visions,  peaceful experience. It is comforting to know that.

I guess you will never truly know the truth unless you experience death. And there is actually no way of going back to tell the world what truly happens when you die because you are dead.  I am also thinking, what if when a person dies, it is simply just the end of everything? Non existent. Just no thoughts, no emotions, bodily functions stop. What if this life is the only chance, the only time and place that we can actually feel and think? The only moment we experience existence and being human.

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Farewell For Now

I will be gone for a while around 2-3 weeks to attend to a family matter. I am not sure if I will be able to blog anytime soon. My mind and my heart are filled with thoughts and feelings that I would love to express. For now, I am just feeling them and going through the experience: hopeful for a good news, sacrificing being away from my children, who are my life, and going through some changes.

Farewell for now. I will be back as soon as I can.

We Are In A Battlefield

Every morning when I bring my son to school, there is an old man standing by the gate. He is there to keep his granddaughter company while waiting for the bell to ring. I found out that they just moved in here (He was from India) and the little girl was new in school.  We would always smile at each other and engage in some conversations. After dropping of the kids in school, I usually see him walk around the block.

Since last week we were walking to school too. The weather has been nice and I need to exercise! This morning, the old man was walking behind us. His name is Hussein. We talked for a while. For just a couple of minutes, he shed his wisdom.

I do not know what we were talking about. But I remember he suddenly told me, “Do not be scared of anything”. And I paused. I told him his message is just what I needed to hear. It is perfect timing.

I believe in our life, God or the Universe help us along the way. The higher power gives you signs and messages even through other people. He continued,  “Life is a battlefield. You should be a fighter!” I recently asked my doctor to give me a prescription refill of Xanax for anxiety. I did not take it before, bottle was unopened since I was nursing my girl. I thought I would need it now. But after talking to the old man, I told myself, I will be a fighter. I will not need it anymore. I will go through whatever I need to feel. I will deal with it. It is all in the mind.

He is saying always think that you can do things. Positive thinking. Power of the Mind. Training the Mind.  Never be afraid. Even if others hurt you or are jealous, be happy. God (or I think he said Allah) will take care of you and will raise you up.

I asked him his religion since he was talking about Hindu teachings and Allah. He said he is Muslim. And we agreed on one thing. People should stop creating divisions among people. We all know different Gods but to look beyond it all, there is really just One Creator.

He talked about other things I see as very insightful/deep. And these little seeds, I continue to plot in my heart. These good things in life are free. They will grow and help me along my journey. And I intend to give these important seeds to my children as well. I just hope I will be a very good example.

Well, I am glad to have spoken to him.

Have a wonderful day everyone, or good night/sweet dreams to my brothers and sisters on the other side of the globe!

On Writing

“It inspires me to write when I am happy and I see beauty.

But I think I write more when I am sad…”

To Connect

To really get to know someone,

You have to see his/her soul

To see the soul, you have to get through the mind

Read his/her thoughts

Then hear the heart

Listen to what it says

Know its dreams, hopes, and even fears,

What makes it happy and sad

Then the souls are no longer an acquaintance

Reality Bites

“No matter who you are, no matter what you have, no matter what you’ve achieved, you’ve hurt at some point in your life. Of the six universal emotions psychologists have identified – happiness, sadness, surprise, fear, disgust, and anger – the majority indicate pain.”

From Tiny Buddha by Lori Deschene

We have to “educate” ourselves and be aware that this is the reality, and we can not do away with discomfort, pain or suffering. We have to accept it as part of our existence. But it does not mean we should be miserable. We have a choice only if we teach our minds. For some people it is so natural to have a healthy perspective. Based on my experience, I am blessed to have a husband who can focus on what is most important in our life. I am the opposite. I am a worrier, I am anxious, I over think. I am writing because this is part of me training myself. I am teaching myself. We have to channel our thoughts, emotions, energy to the positive or good side. This is a challenge to us. Teaching our minds and being more hopeful/prayerful/spiritual. There is always a battle within and outside. We all hope to triumph. By having peace and living in peace.

Why Do I Write?

I WRITE BECAUSE

I have my quiet time  (baby is napping)

I am bored

I am inspired

I am hurt

I am happy

I am annoyed

I am grateful

I am blessed

I am feeling

I am thinking

I am recording my experiences

I want to connect

I want to share

I want to learn

I am free

I am ALIVE!

It surely is nice to have many followers. It is tempting to focus on getting the stats up but I keep reminding myself, I am doing this for me. I am here to savor my journey through life. I am hoping my children will read this someday, and learn so much about their mother. It can also be nice that friends or family can get to know me more as well. I will be happy even if I get to inspire one person. I will be glad to have one person learn something or be comforted with my words. I hope to spread good vibes, to let you know that you are not alone. We share experiences, both pleasant and BAD. It is all good!!!

Have a blessed day!